welcome

Call me Sueyi.
Call me Sue-Sue.
Call me Sue.
Just don't call me lil fry.

A 19 yr old :

Finding her niche in the passionate world of white coats and stethoscopes.

Missing Malaysian food so badly, that she drowns her sorrow by surfing food blogs.

Who watches scary movies only with friends who have high pain threshold (from all that pinching)

Who has very cold extremities, ask my stimulated patients, oops sorry, "simulated patients"

Who loves a good laugh with candid, thick-skinned friends

Who cannot stay surrounded by 4 walls for more than a few hours

Who loves her loved ones so so much


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shout outs



endless wishes

char siew bao.

blueberry muffins.

hot Milo and crackers.

a neverending supply of Daddy's socks.

Bear hugs. Warm kisses. Lots of Love.

My own beach chalet.

Bubble baths.

Shining sun and rainbows.

Sexy stilettos.

Dancing.

Me

I wear socks.Even with heels.

I play with my earlobes.

I have a Mongolian mole.

My family means the world to me. "Family means no one gets left behind"

I like cheekiness. You cheeky, me cheeky.

I heart my close friends, the ones who know me in and out, the ones who've grown with me.

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and when she speaks

Saturday, March 07, 2009

I'm almost done with geriatrics.

Everyone has been wonderful towards me. And I've learnt a great deal.

Finished one whole notebook during my 3-week stint! Observed how doctors broke bad news to patients' family members; and how they discussed end-of-life issues.

I told myself; I'd watch a lot of these conversations and figure out the best possible way to bring this up with families as supportively and gently as possible. But with the bare truth laid out in the most compassionate way I can.

I've taken the good from all the doctors I've watched here along with the doctors I've observed whilst in Canada and in the US. And I am happy with how I deal with my patient's family members.

Over the past 2 weeks; we've had one family who were complicated and stubborn and selfish.

Our patient was completely paralysed from neck down (paraplegic) with severe Alzheimer's dementia and a weak heart. The children decided on active resuscitation despite our best efforts, which were persistent mind you, to consider a DNR status otherwise for their poor mother.

A few doctors postulated on guilt on the children's behalf; for not taking care of their mother whilst she was going downhill over the past few years, for the reason as to choose an active resuscitation status... All of a sudden, when the mother's on her dying bed, everyone comes by and tries to put on a show on how much they're doing for her.

'You know, I haven't seen my husband for a week' says one of them whilst I rolled my eyes on the inside.

When the cold hard truth was that none of them were ever by her side; all too busy for their own selfish interests whilst their mother lay demented and fully dependent on that one daughter who on the other siblings' accord 'wasn't the most intelligent amongst them'...

Despicable. Disgusting. Selfish. Unbelievably selfish human beings. I couldn't comprehend how they could be like this.

I felt sorry for their mum. For that poor grandma who'd always smile when we came by. Even when we poked her.

They brought in all kinds of people to pray for her. Buddhist people. Christian pastors. Other sorts... I don't understand. Please enlighten me as to how people feel guilty only when she's dying and try to compensate for their mistake by praying so hard for her to 'not die'... when all they've done is chuck her to that one 'dumb' daughter to look after their mum.

What word describes them? ...

Anyway, after many many conversations being held and family meetings being undertaken; they've finally agreed on a ' do not resuscitate' status (DNR) for her.

All I can say is thank god. For what's left of their remaining heart to decide on that.

I've learnt a great deal about people whilst doing geriatrics.
I've learnt how family members really appreciate it when you take some time; even a few minutes, to keep them updated on how their loved one is doing.
I've learnt how a smile and a stroke on the skin and holding someone's hand can do so much. Whilst being surrounded intimidatingly by a bunch of doctors. Whilst being poked. Whilst being discussed like some specimen on display.

I've learnt that it's nothing to be ashamed of when you share the patient's fears and pain when they're going through just that. Nothing needed to be hidden. It only helps you understand what it feels like to be in their shoes and makes you a better doctor.

I've learnt that compromise and closing one eye to small harmless mistakes and cold words can make you a happier person. A person free of any small grudges; a person with bigger heart.

I've learnt that friends in the same boat can make life so much more fun and less isolating when that very someone knows how you feel and can relate to you. Especially when you sit and eat together and throw out all the goss & complaints & experiences on the conversation table :)

A smile can break the ice so easily. And then, that someone helps you in your job :)

How just a few minutes spent on teaching me can make me so happy. I'm going to be a great teacher to my students when I'm a doctor too :)

How sharing aspects of your life and opening your story up can unexpectedly introduce a person who coincidentally knows someone in the field you're interested in, into your life :) Thank you Mr. Loo. He gave me a nephrologist's contact number the very second day I spoke to him! It was extremely wonderful of him :)

They say nurses can either make or break your life in that rotation.
I've learnt how holding it there and bring gracious and respectful to them has helped me gain their trust and confidence; and gained lots of friendly and extremely helpful gestures on their part that have undoubtedly helped me in my work =)

Haslina treated me to lunch on my very last day =) She instructed me 'No diet today ah!' and I was very satisfied with lunch =) *hehe* She laughed when I said I cannot wait to 'cubit' (pinch) your baby's cheeks when I come back home in the future. And she complained 'that will be a long time later' but later lamented 'Don't know who will cubit who..' and gave a cheeky smile. *oh brother* She was hinting her baby might be the one pinching my cheeks once I come back cheekily indicating I might be much rounder coming back from the US -.-' She told the baby 'Not to listen to AUNTIE SUEYI' ... and then 'closed' the baby's ears and I laughed saying 'AUNTIE? What auntie? I'm still so young lah! Baby, please hear no evil' :)





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