I got invited to one of my patient's funeral - but as his wonderful wife whom I've gotten to know really well termed it; a "celebration of his life" :)
I thought that was so different from the usual way of mourning, but couldn't have been happier because that's how it should be, that's how the passing one would prefer it to be I'm sure instead of all the tears/unbearable sadness, and that's undoubtedly an easier way for his/her loved ones to cope/process the grief/loss.
I think that although its unorthodox, that should be how we see the end of a loved ones' life. Or rather, the passing on. The body may not be there anymore, but the soul and spirit will forever be.
Unfortunately, I am on call this weekend, and thus, was not able to make it, but I will give her a call tomorrow to check up on her. She and I have bonded, and I've found someone who is similar to me, in that we try very hard to be strong inside, and sometimes we keep it too much to ourselves when we are under pressure, and try very much to burden no one else or rope in help, and she cries just like me *lol* - we do it in private. We both found out that we are very much alike, in how we think, how we feel, and how we process our emotions. I couldn't have been happier to find someone just kinda like me :) She's got an amazing, amazing soul. And a beautiful heart. I truly wish her the strength and passion to keep going on in life, and sharing all that she has to offer - because she truly is such a wonderful person, both inside and out. I remember, those days I use to walk over to his room, I'd say to her, to let herself go, although I knew how strong she was trying to be. She knew what I was trying to get at, and although it's hard when you're so used to staying strong and trying to hold it all together, sometimes just letting it go emotionally makes it so much easier to cope with. We are all only human, there's only so much we can take sometimes, especially when it comes to people who mean the world to us.
AND yes, yes, to all my wonderful friends: I will make it a point to go out and enjoy myself more!!!
EVERYONE keeps repeating the same things to me, constantly reminding me to get out! I HAVE and I am, and I will! *lol* It's just that being on inpatient oncology kept me in the hospital ALL the time!
Now that I'm based in the VA- that's not the case anymore ;) ;) :)
Shush <3 - for taking me out to celebrate, after finding out about my Boards results, over Haagen Daz ice-cream with me :) (awww) and then, saying her mum thinks I'm too cute, and wants me over for dinner with the family! - DOUBLE *yay* :))) And all my other sweetheart friends :) ALL of them :)
I'm so lucky to have such wonderful friends :)