There's so much going on in this head of mine, and even more butterflies in my stomach.
This queasy sensation- has not left me since last night. I've been feeling like vomiting all day long.
*ugh* I guess it's great for weight control lol I honestly feel like my thoughts are all over (much like a kindergarten student's drawing) - that's how messy it feels to me right now.
Anyway, SueSue, you need to get a grip of your own emotional whirlwind, and stay grounded.
I've come to realize all my friends around me, including my loved ones- only want the best for me.
But they all have differing opinions, just as they are all different unique individuals, and most of them come up with pretty good reasonings for me to see their viewpoints, but this heart of mine has always always managed to run its own leash and find its own answers. And I think, rightfully so.
Because ultimately, it is my own decisions that I have to live with.
My own measure of happiness and joy may well differ significantly from another, but it is my own measure, my own terms and definitions. If I may be negative here, if I make the wrong move, then at least I know it was my own mistake to be made, and I will gain a lesson from it, but if it was a decision I was pressured to make, one I was not sure of to begin with, then I will forever never know the extent of the impact of that decision, and forever question myself.
I will live with whatever I put down as my choice. And so then it comes down to me really digging deep to finding out what really makes me happy, and what is it in life that I want.
And just like everyone else, we're all chasing our own pursuits of happiness.
We just have to find our way to our own roads, with pebbles and potholes and all to swerve around
As I think back to two years ago, I will at least know that I have tried. And I live with no regrets- that's how it should be.