and when she speaks
Friday, February 15, 2008
Happy Valentine's Day :)What an awe-inspiring day!I watched a first-time mom deliver her Valentine's Day baby whilst the dad, away in the military, stayed on the phone for hours throughout the ordeal :) He made one joke, 'Baby, isn't this the best Valentine's gift Ive ever given you?'And she was huffing, and panting in pain, pushing the baby and enduring the painful contractions...He would have so gotten a beating! *laughs* She had her mum, grandmum and sister with her.The baby was absolutely beautiful. Just gorgeous, with blue eyes and strawberry blond hair.I had a wonderful lip-smackingly yummy Valentine's cupcake as well *grins*
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Prior to stepping into the room, I flipped her chart and saw that she was born in the same year as me.1987.I went in with a big smile. Introduced myself.She looked shy but warm.I asked her 'what can I do for you today?'She looked at me with a pause.She went on... 'I took a pregnancy test this morning and it was positive''I would like you to do another test to confirm my pregnancy'I went out to collect my thoughts whilst finding for the pregnancy test kit. I have never done one before, so I got my doctor in.We did the test twice for her to see. Both times came out positive, as expected.My doctor started the interviewing.'What's your plan from here?''Are you in a relationship?' NO'Were you in a relationship?' NO'Was it a one-night stand?' Yes.Do you know the father? Yes.'I bawled this whole morning when I found out''How is your mum taking all this?'She is slowly taking it in... But I worry about my father more.xxxPlease use contraceptives. Better advice still, don't sleep around.I can't judge you as your doctor but all I can provide for you when you get pregnant is support. And you need much more than that to go through this life-altering moment at your tender age.
Happy Valentine's Day everyone :)
Dear mum, you always know just what to say.
How I feel. And how I worry.
I heart you so much when you call me at the right time.
When you call me to comfort me.
To let me know going through boy troubles is normal.
To keep me whole when one part of me is lost and finding its way.
To remind me of my dreams and to keep that flame inside me burning so brightly.
That experience is all part of the lesson to grow up.
Love you so so much.
I know even though I'm going to be called a Dr next year, I'm still your little girl at heart. And at home ;)
*muacks* love you lots, mummy.
Monday, February 11, 2008
Thai dinner on Friday.Sushi dinner on Saturday.Dim Sum lunch on Sunday.That's a wrap of my awesome weekend, catching up with friends whom I haven't seen in ages.---I know some of my residents would love for me to be all that I can be.On one end, they say take 2 years off-go travelling, do whatever before starting residency.On the other, they know with my capabilities, they want me to be so much more that I can be- for the people. I know it all sounds very almighty, but that's what some have said directly to me.And I know, I can be what I want to be..I have aspirations. I know what I can achieve.But I also know where to draw the line.I do want a life in the future. I do want a family too.
Let me rephrase that.
I know what I am able to achieve. I won't compromise on my ambitions and limit my potential.
But I know that I want both a career and a family. And I have seen women who do a great job, juggling both. The key is finding the right balance.
It all comes down to finding out who you really are, what you set out to do in life and the balance between it all. And that's a hard call.
Thanks to all who's always been so supportive all the way.
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Gong Hei Fatt Choi everyone.I wish everybody lots of love, joy, prosperity and good health :)We- the Malaysians celebrated CNY on the second day, instead of the traditional eve, because Friday was supposedly the day when no one was on call.Sadly, Wai Voon! You didn't even tell us... we would have re-scheduled it, so that the whole IMU family could have celebrated together. But I know Wai Voon's always thinking for others.The "reunion" dinner we had was too long-awaited. We should have done it long ago, but everyone has been so busy, so this occassion- there wasn't going to be any excuse at all. Because it is after all, Chinese New Year! :)So nice to have one big table @ Talay Thai, everyone just chatting away...And then,we finished it off with ice cream @ Dairy's Queen. Still, nothing comes close to the tong sui back at home. Or the Chinese nian gao fried with sweet potato or yam :) *yummm* or the sweet mandarin oranges. I definitely miss the festive mood back at home. It's so quiet here. But I compensated by staying up at absurdly hours just to skype with all my cousins who came to my house :)So, we still managed to wish each other Gong Hei Fatt Choi :) And I got to listen to fireworks, the noisy tiles of mahjong and the joyous laughter from gambling on card games going on at home.The sweet noise so characteristic of CNY ;)All the chit-chatting, house-visiting, massive dinners, the older generation (really old) challenging each other on XO liquor... *laughs*It hasn't been too quiet for me here-thanks to having a nice bunch of friends around. Been skyping everyday and going out for lovely meals with some friends. Cheers to everyone. Let's do it the Chinese style. With hot tea :)
Sometimes I feel so self-centred.And then I realise I am actually a much happier person when my thoughts are on someone else and not on myself and on what I want.I am most happiest when I am with my patients.The truth is no matter what you do, you'll always be able to effect a change or a difference in someone else's life. A friend of mine steadfastly disagreed and brought up her opinion that in only one field you can truly help someone.I believe it's most important to choose the field you love. Because if you don't love what you do, how are you going to give your 100% to the people who need it most?So, in retrospect, it doesn't matter what you choose to go into, just make sure it's the one you really want. And then, give it your very best each time.---My doctor stuck 2 fingers into my patients' arse hole, for a digital rectal exam.The patient asked 'Why 2 fingers and not ONE?'"Oh. I thought you wanted a second opinion ;) "