and when she speaks
Thursday, October 25, 2012
I wonder if I have changed - and that slowly my values are also changing ...or that I'm starting to lose my old values? - Is this for the better?
Questions I know are so vague, but not for public exposure, questions I know are internally causing conflict and hurt- as I start to wonder about the judgement calls that I make. And knowing this, knowing that I still have so much more to learn, and the naivete that I sometimes have when it comes to reading people or seeing them for who they are and who they can be. It only hurts when it is unexpected and it disappoints and when my emotional self gets overwhelmed.
And only in one matter, where these I don't seem to have answers to. And it seems it's also in this matter where I exercise such poor control of my emotions and psyche.
I guess time will tell. I know this, any decision or choice I make, the consequences are mine to bear.And that at least is a consolation, because you can only look at things two ways; it's either an uphill ride or a lesson well learned.
How do you know if it's for the best for you- when it is what your heart wants, but your mind is carefully holding your heart back?