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Saturday, April 19, 2008
P.S. William, thanks for that e-mail =)
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I got hugged by a patient yesterday when I discharged her.
Another patient, an old man, would put his two hands over my tiny ones, because he said I shocked him with my cold icy limbs, when I palpated him.
I still don't know what kind of doctor I want to be. How leh...? When I was younger, people would ask 'what do you want to be?' The answer was so easy. I want to be a doctor. Now the harder question is 'what kind of doctor do you want to be?'The answer, I'm still searching...And I realise I shouldn't be trying to make things any easier for kuai los by introducing myself as Sue instead of Sueyi. Because so many times when they look at my name tag, they say Sueyi is such a beautiful name... =)
I'm working Saturday and Sunday this weekend. But managed to go to farmer's markets today... Bought bread pudding- which was HORRIBLE!! Don't even know what was in it, soggy mushy bread with nothing inside.So much for the deceiving 'yummy, delicious home-made breads!'
Then again, the main reason why I go to Farmer's markets is becase of these babies :)
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Friday, April 18, 2008
'Sue, if gong-gong goes, do you want to come home?'......No words came out... because it took awhile for that to sink in.I started crying and asked why she asked me that...And she said he's not looking too well. Mum told me to be prepared.And she asked me once more - Sue, do you want to come home ?I couldn't hold back. Deep down, I know it'll be soon. But the suddeness of that question, made it seem to happen all too quick. But I know why. I cried and asked if she was worried, because it is after all, her pa. Funnily enough, she's so much stronger than I am, even though we're talking about her dad, my grandfather.In essence, I should be the tougher one. I should be the one consoling. But no, it was mum...Sometimes I wonder if she really is made of steel strength, if being a mother means having to put up such a strong and courageous front... but then, mum's been through so much. Having half her guts is achievement to me... LoL.I told her to make sure the sisters don't spend so much time on their books and studying, because really those things aren't important. Especially so - when you have an elderly who longs for lots of attention, seeking the purpose for going on despite his aching body giving way.It's hard being so far away.. I sure wish he'll make it til I graduate.
I love you gong gong
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Thursday, April 17, 2008
Enjoying Emerge, I sure am.
But it's starting to get hectic, dealing with electives application, trying to squeeze in studying for USMLE Step 2 whilst working your shifts and running off to classes.. *cross fingers* I'm hoping to get elective spots in John Hopkins, NYU and Cornell. I really feel like I belong here. Working here in this hospital, surrounded by the really great people around.
Just the other day, I was joking to Siraj, I think I'm pretty well known in the hospital by most of the residents ;) I'm not boasting!... I'm definitely lucky in that I've had the luck of meeting some pretty outgoing residents who have shown me around and introduced more people to me.OH! If only I could match to Canada, I would definitely apply to work here for residency... :)
Then again, heading over to the States and experiencing a whole new way of life sounds equally as exciting if not exhilarating.
I mean, there's this sense of going somewhere far and new and making a name for yourself. Trying to stand out and at the same time, push yourself in that new place and really unleash all the potential that you have. It's a whole new challenge and rush :)Anyway... on another topic:I would love a guy who can whip up a great meal in the kitchen and spring a surprise and cook for me a tantalisingly delicious meal for the two of us. That would be so so sweet. And not to mention, unbelievably romantic :)Cannot tahan a guy who is stingy & selfish. He's got to have a generous heart and soul. And it should be natural and sincere... Once I find you think of yourself way too much and sideline others, that pretty much turns me off. I think that's the biggest no-no for me, personally.Generosity is a big plus point... If you're generous, it says so much about your character. How you can love with all your heart. and be willing to share and give.
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11:35 AM;;
P.S. William, thanks for that e-mail =)
