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and when she speaks

Friday, June 19, 2009

I feel these knots in my stomach.

Leaving tonight.

Kathryn was so sweet; she dropped by today. And gave me a gift- which she made me promised THREE TIMES that I can only open it on the plane or in the "US of A" ;)

Uncle Ah Piau came for lunch to catch me too :)

Eugene said he might pop by tonight! But I said, don't worry I won't hold you to it :p

Brian and his girlfriend Sandy have been super accomodating- they're coming to pick me up from the airport tomorrow noon! =)

Write you from Chi-town next!

Sueyi :)

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3:44 PM;;

Thursday, June 18, 2009

I got my US visa today!!! :)

Flying off tomorrow midnight.

*heart you all*
Thank you for the wonderful messages on MSN, Skype, gmail- and facebook :)
And the sms-es! The phone calls. Dropping by my house to catch me before I fly off =)

I quote "I might come to send you off tomorrow. It's the THOUGHT THAT COUNTS" - *laughs* My childhood friend for U!

I love the overpouring of support and concern and love *hehe* Well, I always find it nice to know Im in your thoughts- and the thought itself is always very warmly received :) xo

muacks.muacks.muacks.One more night.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxoooooooo.
Baby (SYU) , thank you for baking me that chocolate cake and writing 'Love U Jie' with pink colour icing on it tonight! :) I was being mean - 'baby, are u sure you did it on your own? Daddy or Mummy didnt ask you to write that on the cake?' - hehe..
Sze-Sze went filming the surprise cake-presenting ceremony and daddy carried me in his arms- and his back suffered afterwards -.-' *hehe*

We all watched two movies tonight. And then, mum and dad came to check on me in my room (with sisters all here) - hehe... And then, each in their own time, dad came to me for his night peck on his cheek. And mum came to check I wasn't feeling too homesick *:)* and gave me a peck too! :)

Tomorrow- we four monkeys are going to head for karaoke singing. Something which I rarely do- but we wanted to try something different this time! We're going to bring the house down!

Loves.

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11:55 PM;;

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

You could put it down to laziness. or plain intentional delaying of booking of my flight tickets. *hehe*

I know I've been home for four months. Yes, four months now.
"Probably no one is as lucky as you" mum exclaimed today to me ;) I truly agree :)

I asked dad once more "Dad, are you sure you don't need a secretary?"
"I'll help you with organising your schedule, your lunch plans with mummy, typing your emails", snickering & half-meaning what I had said *laughs*
Mum replied 'No, your Daddy wants to shoo you back to Chicago, so he doesnt have to spend so much on you"

*fine, fine*

Dad drove the family to our flight ticket agent in SS2 after lunch. They were both asking me if I had already booked my flight ticket after todays' visa interview- I hadn't yet.
Sze-Sze went 'Yayy.. Jie didn't book her ticket. She's not flying back!'
I rejoiced too *laughs* ;)

So, they decided to settle it once and for all -.-'
I had initially wanted to fly off on Thursday and arrive there on Friday. But I was a little hesitant today. I wanted to postpone flying back so soon.
Dad and mum decided for me. *sheepish smile*

And so, now I'm going back on friday night instead of the original plan of Thursday :)
Will be arriving there on Saturday noon.

Wish me luck! =)

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5:42 PM;;

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Yes, I'm always a last minute person when it comes to sorting out paperwork *ughh*

Have never learnt my lesson! :p

Just finished compiling three files of paperwork/official documents for tomorrow morning's US visa interview at the embassy.

Hopefully, should be able to get it the day after and fly off that night itself.

If I arrive on Friday, Brian's throwing a housewarming party at his place with his housemate on that night; so I'll probably (highly likely!) be too pooped to join in the celebrations - well, it is AFTER a brutal 24 hours of flying! Though- it'll be nice to be acquainted to new non-medical friends in Chicago; but I'll definitely hit the sack as early as I can.

I just realised Ive got a pre-test I have to complete that weekend, before heading off to the hospital (Orientation Day 1) for my ACLS exam!!! *bugggger* burning midnight oil before starting work------- -.-'

I have asked the senior just in case I'm feeling really tired, I'll at least have a back-up place to snooze for just that night.

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I was involved in this conversation about looks today. And it pained me to see this girl I know and love so dearly feeling so insecure about her looks- and getting affected by this whole superficial obsession with looking skinny and pretty. She asked 'Am I not pretty at all?'
I felt the sting in her heart- I answered "Of course, you're pretty. I think you're very pretty"

"You're just saying that"
"No, I always thought you were pretty. And photogenic too"

As I was thinking during my shower (I find showering the best time to think and reflect) -
this hit me in my own head:-

Your self-worth is not defined by how you look. how pretty you are or how smart you are.or how much money you're making. (although the world likes to make you think so) --
But defined by how you LOOK at YOURSELF.

"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent"

Sometimes, I fall into the same negative thinking trap; but it's always healthier knowing that how you look at yourself is the most important measure of your self-worth.
And no one can take away your confidence and belief in yourself.
NO one.

I *heart* you. And I think you're beautiful just the way you are.
Soppy, but true :) xo

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10:41 PM;;

I can't believe how much clothes I HAVE AMASSED!!!

I really don't like packing.

I need to move into a studio. That's it.
I need a walk-in closet!

Try to ignore the 6 boxes shipped from Canada- and 3 more boxes in New York City waiting to be shipped -.-'

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1:20 AM;;

Monday, June 15, 2009

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11:59 PM;;

3-4 more days at home sweet home. And am making the most of it with dear family.

Had a lovely surprise email from Dr Vanitha from Kasih Hospice :) to wish me luck and telling me to take care of myself :)

Dr Jee- who I worked with in my GP posting whilst in IMU years back- also reconnected with me through facebook! That was a shocker in itself; seeing him on facebook (lol; yep- he joined the bandwagon!) and he asked if I was 'Sueyi, the old student who worked with me?' - he wanted to make sure because my picture was showing my side profile ;P

These simple gestures - never fail to bring a smile to my face. I like to see them as little droppings of sunshine on everyday life :)

Dropping a line on facebook asking how my application went.
An email letting me know all the exciting things going on in Chicago- and another, already planning all these mastermind activities to get up to during my free weekends!
A gmail offline chat message updating me on cheeky gossip!
A message wishing me good luck.
An sms asking how are things coming along.
A skype call asking when am I leaving? and letting me know dearest mum & dad were so friendly; he shared it with his partner ;)

Friends definitely make the world go round ;) *muacks*

Was acquainted to a senior who works in Chicago by dear Vickie :) The senior has been really helpful; offering to pick me up from the airport to Brian's place; and then, taking me down to Ikea about 40miles away from the city of Chicago for some furniture-shopping when he's free! =)

He made Chicago sound so exciting- I'm already excited reading his email! Music Festival, Food festival, fireworks twice a week during summer! And the beach! :)

I hope my first month of internship is an easy rotation *cheeky grin*
It is SUMMER after all! ;)

We took a last-minute drive to Melaka last night and had dinner at our favourite restaurant! And popped by Jonker Walk (which I love!)

Today, we four monkeys took a trip to the playground and took many videos of us fooling around; damaging public property *laughs* ;)

Back to packing my luggage! :)
I'm going to miss home..And the house is going to be so quiet without the crazy kook ;)

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6:37 PM;;

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.

Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

When in doubt, just take the next small step.

Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

I got this from a friend's post on facebook. *laughs*
I shall quote that person "Sentimentality has a tendency to bite you in the arse eventually"

I laughed reading some parts of it; and thoroughly enjoyed it :)

This is perfect for those in a rut, for those wallowing in self-pity and for those who work so hard and forget to spend time with their loved ones and smell the roses along the way ;)

A few more days at home sweet home.
Serious bonding going on at home *laughs* ;)

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3:45 PM;;