and when she speaks
Monday, May 30, 2011
On another note, I miss home and family. very much.
What makes me happiest...
*when my patients smile and are comforted/reassured by me
*when I read anything that inspires me
*when I have a good listening companion who's understanding and supportive when I need an ear or shoulder to lean on
*when I can let my hair down, laugh as loud as I want, dance my heart out with all those silly imperfect ballet twists/pirouttes, sing to my heart's content despite my tone-deaf ears-and not give a hoot to what people think. because life is short. and meant to be fulfilled to the very best of your ability regardless of what everyone else thinks
*when I realise how much my loved ones around me love me
*when I am surrounded by my closest friends
*when what I've worked hard for, and put in a lot of effort, pays off and my dream comes true
*when I feel like I can accomplish anything I set my heart to. You know, they say the world is your oyster :)
I have my moments of doubts. fear. uncertainty- and no one is exempt from those feelings.
"The past is like a river flowing out of sight, the future is an ocean filled with opportunity and delight"
I thank god for being blessed with so many people around me who are there for me when I have my down moments.
My mum wrote this to me via email: Life is precious and so fragile. We alone are responsible for our lives. The best gift we can have is to be happy and healthy, the rest are bonuses.
I love my mama for her dose of inspiration every once in awhile to bring me down to earth and remind me of how blessed I am.
"Mother love is the fuel that enables a human being to do the impossible."
Pork ramen and sake at Ginza.
Photoshoot with Cheah at Millenium Park, Chicago's Public Library, around the streets downtown, followed by having a freshly blended strawberry smoothie and a slice of pastry at Lake Towers :)
Off to dinner at Nacional 27, and ice-cream at Ghirardelli's... and a quiet, but cold stroll by the beach.
BBQ birthday/housewarming at Ray's/Su Meng's place- followed by a walk down riverwalk, watching the skateboarders for about half an hour. Then, off to catch the Bulls game, at a hole in the wall called Stokes & Blondes, and running back home in the rain.
Amazing weekend, but oh so exhausting! :)
"To be a star, you must shine your own light, follow your own path, and not worry about the darkness-for that is when the star will shine its brightest"
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Listening to a song baby (SyuSyu) recommended: Rose- The Feeling
Contemplating on what I've accomplished, and where to go from here. I maybe have been a little complacent these past few months after fellowship applications have come to a halt, pending results revelation on June 15, 2011. Told Dr Leslie, I'm keeping my fingers crossed. He has faith in me- I sure hope I don't let anyone down. I pray to God I'll get my top three :)
Pondering on what I want in life, and maybe in a life partner too. Without a doubt, mistakes will be made along the way- but hopefully ones that will help me learn and grow. "Live and learn" they say. Sometimes I wonder if it's good to contemplate so much versus 'going with the flow' and letting yourself go (within boundaries of course)... but I know myself the latter is hard for me to do, because I'm one who thinks carefully and weighs out risks/benefits before pursuing any decisions made. I know for sure, I will stand strong by my values and principles- and not compromise on them. It'll be nice to find another half who complements me perfectly and is able to share my journey with me whilst I work to accomplish my dreams. We'll have fun riding the highs and lows in life whilst helping each other overcome challenges along the way, and enjoying the sweet successes and joys life has to offer.
But for now, we'll see :)
In the meantime, there's going to a surprise for my family back home next weekend. It'll be amazing. I can't wait :)
Love my interns. They light up my days at work. And a specially cute old patient that holds a special spot in my heart (he's got the sweetest smile)