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Tuesday, March 23, 2010

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My new boss is amazing. He's so well-read. During some down time whilst waiting for patients to arrive at the clinic, he hands me the Wall Street Journal and gives me a small pep talk on the importance of financial planning.

Then he asks me what I'm interested in, and I say Oncology. And he goes on explaining the importance of knowing people and giving me lots of advice :)

And he lets me off at 2pm. How sweet is that? ;)

I've been having sleepless nights for awhile. I can't wait for my NYC trip to unwind :)
Looking forward to old friends whom I met as a medical student! :)

I organised a sushi dinner tonight; and turnout was good :) I'm so glad most came! Some faces I haven't seen in awhile! Roselyn, Fareed, John Patrick, Kevin Chen, Karen, Gerome, Bea (and of course, Savio who I've definitely seen lots around ;P). We overstuffed ourselves silly with the Sushi happy hour :) The guy by the front counter who tended to us found out we were doctors when we told him some were going to be late and some had to leave early for work at 7pm, and he was understanding of the fact that we couldn't all arrive on time cos of our doctorly duty schedule *or else they won't sit you*. He then exclaimed 'Wow, I would like to make one of you my future wife'... and Gerome teased me and told the rest when they arrived cos it was just the two of us then with that fella. After he made that statement and left for the bathroom, Gerome asked me again 'DID he just say make you his future wife??' I was like 'NOO!'

We had a good night, waiting for the sushi to arrive - cos Fareed and Karen had to leave for work in like half an hour by cab! We gobbled it all in barely 20 minutes *laughs* It was fun. Gerome was the only counting how many sushi he had! He initially capped it at 18 then failed to resist and increased to 22 ;)

Then, we headed back to my place at wicker Park :) and hung out and chatted for awhile. Laughing over cuss words in Filipino ;) Eating green pea biscuits.

Then, took off to Violet Hour for some drinks :) Yakked away and had good drinks with some pita bread and hummus and tater tots dipped in cheese :)

Came home extremely stuffed and happy with my photos :) !

xoxoxo
Onto Mexican tacos tomorrow night and NYC this weekend, darlings! :)

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Monday, March 22, 2010

Sometimes, facing the truth can feel as if the world is falling on your shoulders. But when done, part of that load comes off. The hardest part is in coming out of denial and being out in the open.

I did this just a few days ago, and caused loved ones to worry. Which is the last thing I ever want, when I'm so far away from them. I want to be that filial daughter who they don't have to worry about- and feel assured that I am perfectly capable of caring for myself.

Hendrick always says 'Sueyi, I always worry for you...' And I go 'WHY?! I've been overseas for so long; and look at how I'm faring; why do you all still worry?'

And he goes 'I don't know... I just do.'
I guess this is what true friends and family do. They love and it shows when they won't stop worrying.

With each phase in life; as I'm growing older; I learn different and new things; and explore new aspects of life I've never really delved deep into before. Some days can feel like a roller-coaster ride; some nights can be wrecked by sleepless nights just being overwhelmed trying to figure out answers and questioning your every moves and decisions... but as I grow older; and as my parents get older; the more I feel responsible to not burden them with any concerns I have on my side. It's called the climb of independence. Your pride wills you to do so. Of course, that's not to say I don't discuss with them the big decisions in my life- but I don't see a need to involve them for small things for fear they worry too much. I know mummy will always say 'You'll always be our little girl no matter what, no matter how old you are, being a doctor definitely doesn't change any of that' *laughs*

I am glad they're always so supportive and understanding. And the fact that they worry, I know shows just how much they care. I never fault them for being over-protective, nor do I ever want to hurt them in anyway possible. Filial piety- the number one rule in my book; for all that they've done for me- to be where I am at today.

Life is a learning curve. We fall and make mistakes; and pick ourselves up again and plower through. "No matter how it turns out, it always ends up just the way it should be. Either you succeed or you learn something. Win-win"

It's good if you're smart and pick out your own battles, but sometimes, you inadvertently land on the more challenging course, and then you learn the harder way. But the most important thing is you learn the lesson well.

Whatever that doesn't kill you, only serves to make you stronger and wiser.

Carpe diem

Sue-Sue

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12:53 PM;;

There are moments in your life when you want to be surrounded by people; surrounded by love and the feeling of belonging. Especially when your dearest loved ones are far away at home across the wide, vast ocean.

I have to say I'm so grateful to have so many amazing friends whom I can always count on.
They're my family here.
They fill up any void of loneliness that I have :) and I'm glad I have the luxury of having friends whom I can always call up or pester for dinner or someone to just be there :)

Hilda- my senior from the next door hospital who has been my big sister; my friend whom I look up to for guidance; who kicks me in the butt when I'm not grounded; and who does exactly what a true friend does:- she tells it as it is, bluntly. No sugar-coating. True blue facts. A rare friend who's an absolute gem.

My dearest Malaysian girlfriends- who fill up my dinner nights with girly laughter and cheeky gossips :) Who give me that warm bear hugs; and tease with air-kisses. I love our get-togethers where we just yak the night away and lose track of time. Just cause we share great chemistry and that special sisterhood bond.

My dear housemates:- They've been there to unclog the toilet when I've clogged it (embarassingly!) Insanely; I'm now so immune to them teasing about my 'toilet habits' and we can converse about 'bowel movements' casually ;) Always ready to come rescue me when I'm lost (thanks to my pathetic sense of direction) and fork out financial advice (since they're all in the finance industry!) ;) And just plain ol' fun company. Company you can sit with and just not say anything yet feel comfortably yourself and right at home :) *my boys* hehe...

The gang of friends - just for being themselves and ready to help. Genuine, fun-loving and nuts when it's time to really let your hair down! :) I'm always looking forward to hanging out with them :)

My colleagues at the hospital: Just the camaraderie and the natural instinct to help one another. The random happy pages; or a 'Hey you, let's go out tonight!'. The warm smiles; the visits to each other's call room :) The sharing of a cookie moment during bake sale at 10.30pm at Au Bon Pain. Cheers to the girl friends who have been supportive and always ready to join in my crazy antics :)

I was just browsing through a friend's blog- and I realised looking back; I've been very lucky.

To have been surrounded by people with good hearts (most of them ;)) since I've been here...
To share the ups and downs and (drama which I create to spice the monotony sometimes ;p *yeah right* who has the energy for that? :p) --- the joys and blissful moments--- the trials and tribulations--- the dim sum sessions on the very few Sundays that I have off--- the Kodak moments :)

Ah- I heart you all :)
*mwah*

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Sunday, March 21, 2010

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