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Tuesday, February 07, 2012

"Treat your life like the sea, your heart the shore and your friends the waves...

It doesn't matter - how many waves there are, what matters is how one touches the shore"

It was daddy's birthday yesterday.

He turned 52.

I remember in Form 2, when I was 12, I won the Father's Day slogan writing competition.

I wrote this:

"I love you daddy because you taught me to believe in myself"

I'd like to think I'm a little chip of the old block :) and inherited parts of his charisma (charms) and passion for having big dreams, aiming high and working hard towards those dreams.

I remember, the night before I left for Australia (aged 14), I had a sudden wave of anxiety and panic that hit me... and I couldn't sleep. The sudden daunting of leaving home to a new country with a different culture, being on my own for the very first time, leaving the comforts of my home- I got scared. So scared, my heart was beating so hard, I could not sleep.

I went downstairs- and daddy soon joined me. We stayed up talking, as he brushed away my deepest fears, helped allay some of my anxieties and gave me a little confidence boost.

How far we've come. Both of us ;) I'm now a "big, bad doctor" as my boss puts it :)

And daddy's business is flourishing! of course with mummy behind him!

MY dearest daddy and mummy- my biggest supporters along with my 3 sisters.

I am so so blessed to have such great parents who love me with all of their hearts.

Happy Birthday daddy!

Thanks for always being there for me, for being so awesome :)

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Monday, February 06, 2012

Nobody said breaking up was easy.
But we did it well. Maturely, mutually and amicably. It ended on a positive note- before I bid my farewell to Chicago for Washington, DC.

BUT having said that, nothing ever prepares you enough no matter how much mental strength you have- for ending a good relationship. With someone who has such a big soul, who makes you smile and loves you for being you... I remember the nights I was torn, with so many uncertainties in my life, for not being able to give my all to someone whose heart had mine in hand. The numerous discussions we had, were undoubtedly heart-rending, open and honest, but it had to be done- despite us both breaking down in tears a few times.

I have to say this, love is a beautiful thing. Love with passion, together can make us all better human beings. And we need more of that in this world.

Again, a quote that comes to mind from a dear friend a long time ago- "better to have loved and lost than not loved at all" - I couldn't agree more.

I am at home with family now. My rocks.
My friends of course, are a tremendously supportive one. But we have promised to make it the least painful breakup ever. We will still be there for each other, (lol)- although it sounds like he may be there for me (watching my back) since he's always been the more dependable and independent one. BUT I am a tough cookie too, and I have definitely grown a lot in the past year, with him by my side :) *suesue, remember, you are a feisty cili padi*

We both have so many things to focus on. Both of us, driven. (lol) although I think I am definitely the more driven one. as I have always been.

I love my job, and right now, I will stay focused. On ABIM, USMLE Step 3, forging a strong foothold in DC for my hematology/oncology fellowship. I want to kick ass :)

I want to make myself and my loved ones proud of me. A little smile is curved on my lips as I am typing this now.

I have big dreams. I know that. My close ones sometimes worry for me. A few friends of mine call me the "over-achiever"- but I never think of myself as that. I want to go as far as my best can take me.

Medicine is my destiny, and I will give it my very all. And go out there, make my mark and be a role model my sisters can emulate. I am determined to make a positive difference in people's lives. You know how they say "the torch that lights up people's lives"; I aspire to be that.

I am growing up. My best friends in Chicago have said they have watched me grow so much in the past two years, into a young woman. Life lessons that have molded me, and given me new perspectives- on everything. I have definitely matured a lot.

I do feel like an old soul (lol) (Maybe I sound like one too lol)
My writing may seem erratic in this post.
But how I am feeling inside, is poured out here in this entry- no holds barred.

I have cross paths with so many amazing people, who have taught me so much in Chicago.
And I am going to use all of those experiences to make me a better person.

Vincent Van Gogh said this once
"It is good to love many things, for therein lies strength, and whosoever loves much performs much, and can accomplish much, and what is done with love is well done"

To the people who have loved me for who I am and still love me, I thank you.
You know who you are. No need to mention it here, since I probably already bombard you guys with my emails ;) (or copies of my blog entries hehe)

To living out our dreams!
Much love,
Sueyi :)

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