and when she speaks
Friday, October 05, 2012
Guess who passed her Internal Medicine board exam today? WHoopeee :)
And so NO more board exams for Internal Medicine for another 10 years! ;)
Of course I've got my hematology/oncology boards- but that's in another 3 years *winks*
All the hard work paid off :) Guess what I may turn out to be the second youngest internist in the US ;) Ok- so there was another genius who graduated from medical school at age 21 from UoC, but I may be en route to becoming the youngest oncologist in training! I emailed AMA today, but they were not able to look it up for me, so they directed me to ASCO. And that will be my homework this weekend :) You know what? I think it's a good sign that my patients are already asking for my name card, so I think I'm doing a pretty decent job, although I'm only in my first year of oncology training :) So far, I've gotten great feedback, and will continue doing my best. I'm on my way to becoming a shining star in what I do- and I will give it all of my heart :) It's truly a dream to have come this far, and to be doing what I love.
To this, I thank all my biggest supporters and to my guiding lights watching over me from up above
I heart the ones who have truly been there and cared for me
Thursday, October 04, 2012
Sometimes a heart numb is maybe the most comforting of all
for then the emotional burden dissipates when you can't feel
An unwritten story
Sad, but powerful and beautiful
Hearts intertwined - with a bond so tightly held
That wretched the soul even more as the strings that held it together start to thin
Clinging on, so faithfully, we tried
All the while with sorrow from within
But faith found its nemesis
And the strings fell apart
And now, it is time to heal what's left
(I don't think I make a good poet lol!)
On a happier note, I truly heart my life in the VA. My patients are adorable - and it feels so immensely gratifying because they are so truly grateful for your efforts :)
To love, to being passionate in all that you do in life, and to living your dreams out (or at least giving every new thing a shot/ or a chance) - because life is just a big roller coaster ride, you wanna make sure you ride the ups and the downs, and not miss the ride of your life *as cliche as that was* ;)
With every down, all the ups that you experience will be truly treasured and worthwhile
Tuesday, October 02, 2012
"When you find yourself cocooned in isolation, and cannot find your way out of the darkness,
remember that this is similar to the place where caterpillars go to grow their wings"
Someone wrote to me and made me smile, saying what I write is like chicken noodle soup for the soul
I thought that was really sweet
The tears can't stop falling.
And I need them to stop.
I am struggling, and I want to build myself back.
What's happened to me?
I used to be the ship that sailed strong and sailed steadily, against any wind that came...
I just need to find strength within myself again.
I need to put my heart away for now- and stay focused.
I need to find me again, amidst all of this.
Give me strength- and stay with me, through all of this.
I know you're watching down on me- just guide me, and my emotional heart.