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Friday, June 12, 2009

We threw a party for Sze-Sze today :)

Right after she finished class at 10.30am, mum went to pick her up, along with her friends and two other cars followed closely behind. Dad, mum and us three woke up bright and early to help out!

We had so much good food- everybody left and thanked Sze-Sze for the amazing party and the "delicious food" lol AND the 'wonderful, friendly family' =)
All thanks to mum and dad's cooking :)
Fish, squid rings, mussels, crabs, prawns, curry chicken & fried rice, dessert drink of longan and lychee, fruits, baba & nyonya assorted cakes & lots more sweet stuff :) And some baileys and red wine for those gamed - the sight of one shy boy becoming all talkative and outgoing ater a drink was funny ;)

I asked one of them; 'Did you guys have enough to eat?"
He rubbed his tummy satisfyingly and exclaimed 'Oh, we had more than enough!'
*laughs* That's what we like to hear, as hosts :)

Then, 3 more cars turned up outside. Mum came up to tell me 'SO many just turned up'
I'm guessing more than expected came ;) and mum was so worried there wouldn't be enough food... lol

They all had a thoroughly good time. Watching the sem 1's from IMU together- brought back memories of my own 18th birthday party :) I had such a great time with all of Sze-Sze's friends ;) *hehe* - Some were older than me! And a few came up to me for study tips and advice on med school *laughs*

One of them, finally taught me the secret to that silly game 'Close, open, close,open'- he gave in to me, I guess simply because I was the elder sister *laughs*
He said 'Ok Ok I'll tell you' *winks*
And when I found out!!- BOY, I had been hoodwinked all these years!

Desmond came by today too! I was afraid he'd be shy to turn up- but he DID show up :) We had such a great time; and he brought me up to speed on what was going on in New York! ;)
I miss him so much. He asked mum 'Auntie, let Sueyi come tonight to the party' at his place... I laughed and mum said 'It's not me you should ask- it's Sueyi's daddy you know... She's his 'poh pui' " *:p*

Sze-Sze's girlfriends were asking 'who's that cute guy?' and Sze-Sze crushed their hopes *laughs*
Syeyi gave him the sweetest smile when she came back home... LOL.

Thanks for coming to the house today DES :) xoxo
As per our usual tradition, when I walked him to his car, he gave me HIS big big warm kiss and a squishy loving hug.

I'll see U in the States :)

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11:25 PM;;

Thursday, June 11, 2009

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY SZE-SZE!!!

Yes, you're now an "adult"

May 18 bring you a year filled with love, laughter, great friends, easy-going med school life; great health and most importantly; JOY and FULFILMENT :)

Maybe you'll be infatuated a few times this year-since your hormones are raging wildly (WELL; they're wilder than mine, that's for sure :p!)
- but always know- your sisters are behind you no matter what.
AND IF ANY BOY BREAKS YOUR HEART, I'll BREAK HIS BONS-BONS. if he has any... =)

*evil laughter*

No one bullies my sister. I know she can protect herself; but sometimes I worry she's naive and innocent.

Ah well, as a good friend told me once; you need to let go and let them learn whilst you hang around the sidelines, getting ready to support them when they need you :)

I love you lots.
*muacks*
HAPPY 18th Birthday turtleeee ;) you're going to miss someone kicking you in bed; and giving you unexpected warm bear-hugs ;)

Love, Jie.

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9:19 PM;;

Going to the States, I've had the opportunity to rub noses with really bright people from Malaysia- most scholars and exceptional in their own field- or at least, are working towards that....

I've met some really inspiring people; people who have blown me away with their numerous achievements and continue pursuing what their hearts yearn. There really is no limit, when you set your heart and mind on your aspirations. And I'm not just talking about work or school here.

Why waste the potential you have? Go all out, explore all the possibilities, take calculated chances, challenge yourself. You can go as far as you think you can.

I'm glad my parents have always placed education as a priority for all of us; despite us being girls. They believe in giving us all the chance to be the best we can be. And for that, I am very thankful- because I know so many who aren't as lucky- And in particular, I know so many girls who are denied that opportunity simply because they are 'girls'...unfortunately, many old-fashioned parents still have the mentality that only sons should be given privileges like education. It is sad when you see your friend or cousin who wants to further their studies, but do not get the permission or the support to do so, because of their gender.

We were taught in school- knowledge is power, education is the key to a better life.
And it is only now, as I've climbed through the educational workings and entered the social arena have I really realised education does push you up in society.

Education gives you the power to achieve what you want in life.

And to those who say to the girls; why study so hard?? "Just go get married"

I say; girls- stay away from them- because education gives you the foundation to be self-sufficient.

And for those who tell you well-educated women are intimidating and not an attractive feature for guys- they're not worthy of you.

Well-educated, confident and self-assured men embrace women with brains ;)

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8:53 PM;;

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

A few posts of mine a few weeks back- had been on one thing. Subtlely.

One thing which was playing with my mind and my heart.

It didn't stop for a few weeks. And I was upset with how it was claiming control over my thoughts and running my puppet strings of feelings.

I let it run out of control with my own imagination and I guess, lots of free time *hehe*

It was silly, I admit. I was flirting with - my imagination.
But still, it was a great time - and sometimes, you fall for the excitement and the perfect setting at that moment.

Chalk it up to another unforgettable memory :)
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I visited Haslina and her baby with mum today. Her baby was beautiful. *laughs*

I didn't know this til today; a baby's face can change many, many times. He/she can look like dad on day one & then, more like mum on day 2. Her mum said a baby's face can change til 44 days old... *interesting* :) Congratulations dear! And thank you for the kain for the kebaya to wear to Malaysian Embassy gatherings ;) Will see baby again next year-hopefully, by then I can 'cubit' her cheeks ;)

Had tonnes of ice-cream in Haagen Daz today. Just me, Syeyi and Syu-Syu which blew me back RM70 dollars- just on ice-cream in one sitting. Thank goodness I'm about to start collecting paychecks ;)

Sze-Sze's officially 18! We're throwing her a birthday lunch gathering on Friday cos' her IMU friends are all sitting for their first exam next next week. Should be exciting and fun! We had another round of ice-cream tonight:- ice cream cake! =)
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Luscious List of mine:-

Playing with Johnny. Listening to great music. Writing and journaling.
Reading. Just being silly and making a fool of myself with my dear sisters.
Quiet reflecting. Creating collages of pictures with dearest friends and family.

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11:42 PM;;

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

A friend whom I met on the airplane who is based in Hong Kong now- has just revealed to me his grandpa has pancreatic cancer.

I know the term cancer is always terrifying and cancer almost always strikes unexpectedly. It's only normal to have all sorts of negative emotions towards it; fear; anger; denial; anxiety- and it scares everyone... not only the patient but the loved ones all around are equally as affected as well.

He had some questions on pancreatic cancer and just wanted to touch base & correlate what I knew about it with what his doctor said... I guess he just wanted some clarification and some reassurance; and hear another medical person say the same things- in laymen terms. I've found myself in this situation many, many times amongst family and friends- even new acquaintances.
What I usually do:-
I explained what I know to them and always, always encourage them to actively ask their doctors questions and on any uncertainties they have- because that's part of the doctor's responsibility.

I was taught in Canada by my first resident; to get patients to write down questions that they have after being diagnosed - because most of the time; their minds blank out after being told blankly that they have cancer. Everything else after the word -cancer- becomes a big blur.

I gave my promise to my grandpa who passed away last year during my surgery rotation that I'll be the best doctor I can be. And I will live up to that promise. For me and for my loved ones and for my patients to whom I have a responsibility to.

"Now that I know that what you know corresponds to what the doctor has mentioned, I feel a bit relieved; since I don't know much about it"

And then he cheekily added this:-

"I have a feeling that you are going to be a great doctor.
Well i know who I'll look for when I need a pretty doctor hahaa"

*damnnn cheeky that little bugger*

I always hope for close support and understanding within their family in times like these.

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4:46 PM;;

It was so nice to have caught up with everyone from all around the world tonight! =)

I'm missing the New York gang very much. But I have given my promise to visit one weekend there ;)

And my two closest high school friends back at home ;) one of them who never fails to make me laugh over his love escapades/adventures :p and the other, a loud mouth chicka ;)

Now- onto meeting one of my dearest closest most understanding guy friends of mine - dear Desmond, back from NYC! Whom everyone thinks is so darn good-looking and have questioned our relationship :p *laughs* He thinks he's so famous amongst my friends now -.-' *oh brother*

Zig Ziglar-ing and Mitch Albom-ing my lazy afternoons. And spending as much time with my two younger sisters who are officially done with their Canadian school year :) and planning for Sze-Sze's sweet 18th this fri!

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1:00 AM;;

Sunday, June 07, 2009

Fish & chips & squid rings. House. My favourite dim sum @ Jaya 33. Emails to update everyone in Chicago. Actually did some reading in IMU *immensely proud of myself :p*. Midnight movie with family @ 1 Utama- Night in the Museum. Blue eyeliner from Sze-Sze. New sexy blue & gold stilettos for dinner. And a fabulous watch from mum & dad.

A few more people I promised to meet up with this week before I fly off :-
Kathryn
Haslina and soon-to-pop-out baby ;)
Desmond

I love my sisters. And adore them to bits.

I sleep with Sze-Sze and she's one heavy log-sleeper. Always sleeping diagonally, her legs occupying my side of the bed. So each time I go to bed (she's always already sleeping!), I have to kick her back to her side, which isn't a light job :p Sometimes I'd end up (accidentally) sleeping close to her; (cos' I like to sleep near her) and she would complain 'JIE!'

'What?'
'You're coming too close!'

So?
"Go to your side. I don't like people sleeping near me. I like sleeping alone!"
"Yeah right. Then, how are u going to sleep with your husband in the future?" *that was the only miserable comeback I could think of*

"I don't care. Too bad for him..."
And she stuffed our bolster right smack in between the two of us *pffttt*

This sister of mine. She's so going to miss my hugs and my warmth ;) and my company!!

hehehe.

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4:54 PM;;

Vanessa dropped by with Auntie Linda last night and we both shared a heartfelt conversation - what else on? b.o.y.s. *laughs* Never laugh at someone else's boy or your future one might end up being exactly like the one you laughed at ;)

A junior in IMU came up to me and said "I'm so impressed by you."
I laughed and brushed it aside thinking Sze-Sze must have put in a good word about me, "OH dont listen to her to whatever she says"

She wouldn't stop smiling at me, so earnestly.

My sister didnt say anything. And I smiled at her, hoping this would go somewhere else.
Then, she continued looking at me and smiling. I felt so weird- she was smiling in adoration towards me.
Then, I laughed aloud and repeated what I said 'Really, dont listen to her!'
She exclaimed 'A doctor at 21... how did you do it?'

I pooh-poohed it and flashed her a bigger smile, hoping this might change where the conversation was going. I thanked her and then, Sze-Sze and I both had to leave urgently cos' mum was busy buzzing us on my handphone. I questioned Sze-Sze later on what she said- she told me she didnt say anything to her, solemnly.

And I found out her friend did the telling -.-'

Good news is- a few people whom I've bumped into exclaim I look younger than my 21 years ;)
You don't know how silly and happy this makes me- I have never felt so old being at home, constantly reminded about my old age by my three younger monkey sisters:

"JIE. I CANT BELIEVE you're 22! Man, THATS SO OLD"

I correct them "21! I AM 21!"

Then, the youngest jumps in the other sister's defense; adding salt to the wound; 'Jie when I finish med school, you're ALMOST THIRTY"
*ouch*
I fight back (yes, childishly) 'They say life begins at thirty, darling' -.-'

Met dear Sabrina today and we shared thick peanut butter & strawberry thick toast and French toast at The Gardens. Lots of laughter, cheeky teases, catching up & sharing of latest news and happenings in each others' lives =) I'll see you next CNY xoxo

I wanted to join the young ones in the TV room last night; the 17 year olds - boys and girls. It was so fun; but Sze-sZE said no, it'll only make it awkward for them. And I frowned and gave my sad puppy face, to no avail obviously. They were having so much fun and I wanted to join in. Mum laughed and said I'm much "older" la... *sigh* this age thing is really getting into me.

- Or is it me going to leave home soon that's making me like this?

xoxoxo

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2:16 AM;;