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Saturday, May 30, 2009
Baking session - we made chocolate chip cookies with rainbow sprinkles to start the morning buzz =)
I'm thinking of throwing a costume party for Sze-Sze's 18th birthday! Or a cupcake party! :)
Syeyi's boy-boy (crush) calls her about three times a week. And sometimes they talk endlessly. laugh gregariously. tease blatantly. for 2-3 hours.
It's nice to have that sometimes isn't it? LoL :)
There are times when I see that, and want that. Then again, it's not always as easy and happy as it seems. My cousin dated for 8 years with this guy, before finally breaking off. It's scary, isn't it?
Alina, Kathryn and I were out in Starbucks the other night; and we were talking about boys and companionship. How our opinions were quite different. One party wouldn't mind settling down with a steady, supportive companion. And another enjoying the dating arena whilst getting to know different people.
I just know this. I believe in getting to know someone before settling into a relationship. It takes love, compromise and a mutual understanding of one another before being able to work a relationship. And of course, lots of TLC ;)
Last night, daddy said to me:
'You know, later on, if you meet a nice boy and get to know him, see how things go...and then, you can settle down later...'
I went 'DADDY!' *laughs*I know he means well and fears I end up being single. LOL. Yes, THAT IS exactly what he fears.. (I worry him even more by scaring him saying 'Dont worry, I'll stay with Sze-Sze then ;p)... Although - when I go out with boys, he worries SO MUCH too -.-' *Daddy*
Dearest daddy, U worry too much. And I agree with you wholeheartedly.I definitely want all that (lol)
I know you care deeply and lots too. Don't worry :)
I definitely want to be pampered and loved by a guy *laughs* I just haven't found my soulmate yet ;)When I find someone who sets my heart on fire, then you'll know about it :) *laughs*
P.S. and daddy, thanks for being there during my boy troubles
Love U lots *muacks*
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6:43 PM;;
Friday, May 29, 2009
I am sorry for being so emo. I have been very overwhelmed the past few days...
I had a nice talk with mummy this morning, who's been a big big help driving me around :)
and as usual, being super supportive and understanding and comforting :)
Love you, mummy :)
I also laughed and told her I know I am the kind of person whom has to write things down to consciously do things. So I wrote a really lame statement 'I am a fighter' and I told her I put it down a few times : on my blog. On my nicknames. On everywhere possible. Emails. *hehe*
It's lame, I know. But I need to consciously see and write it. And put it into my head.
I NEED to give myself 'the' pep talk.
I'm the sort of person who likes ample time to do something; hence I always prepare much earlier; if I can help it.
But you know what?
It's a great learning experience this one; no doubt; it's caused sleepless nights and some headaches BUT- it teaches me to learn to adapt to change. Learn to accomodate to unexpected situations and learn to grapple with uncertainty. And yes, life still goes on, with many more of these problems cropping up once every while. And you have to learn to deal with these things that sometimes don't happen according to your plan; and learn not to make yourself miserable :)
I always feel much better, after talking it out in the open with mum. She knows exactly what to say and she can see the situation so much better than I can, in times like this :)
That's why you're the world's best MUM la ma..... *heheheh* Yes, I KNOW u want diamonds! ;P
Thank you Kathryn! For always offering your ear, some TLC & taking me out for a funny movie with caramel popcorn to relax :) u know I love you lots... :)
Zainah has been wonderful to share some words of advice and concern this morning. Very very kind-hearted of her, despite only having met her twice before today :)
A few people I've met have passed on the message that maybe this is a blessing in disguise with the swine flu going on... I laughed but hey, it's a very positive way of thinking about it =) Auntie Ann & Sabrina (from DHL) *laughs* :)
Kathryn said it's a blessing because I got to meet ALINA last night! which wasn't at all supposed to happen until my visa got delayed ;) Yes, we had a blast last night, didn't we? ;)
Daddy said the unexpected delay came in at a perfect time whatwith grandma's diagnosis of cancer. I could stay here and spend more time with her.
Auntie Fei Tze (being super concerned like the very nice auntie she is) said 'don't stress la Sue, already you're so skinny!' *hahaah* thank U auntie! (p.s. also not very skinny since the last time u saw me ;p)
:) I'm happy. And relaxed.
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12:28 PM;;
I feel a little better.But just a few moments ago, I felt like crying my heart out.This is stressful...But you know what-I am not going to let this thing get to me. I am going to deal with this. And if things go late, I will take it as a longer holiday with my family.I am NOT going to let this ruin my few weeks with my loved ones.I am a fighter. And nothing can step on my spirit. Nor will I let this crap make me wallow in self-pity.I am tough. A feisty little cili padi. And I am going to enjoy life; and work this out with a calm level-headed mind and a relaxed nature.Thank you to those who have been supportive, or at least ready to supply that ever-listening ear or the occassional pep talk.Lots of lovexoxoxoxoxoxo
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2:24 AM;;
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
I had lunch with Aznah today; and afterwards... I met Anita's mum in IMU today. She was a ball of fun... Just like Anita, she certainly wasn't shy *thats why I love U!* ;p - 'SO, do u have a boyfriend yet?'Aznah, who knows Im single- said to her 'Must introduce to her la...'I laughed. I wont divulge what else we talked about. That Aznah is ONE cheeky devil.
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6:42 PM;;
Last night, I wanted to scream my lungs out into my pillow.
I was frustrated, angry, tired and worried.
So I vented out in my normal way. I talked to someone. and wrote many emails... with Adam Lambert's studio version of No Boundaries playing :)
I am so glad the responses came back early this morning... Their guidance have been tremendously helpful and comforting. Their words are a big-burden reliever; as they've all experienced this and are definitely wiser when it comes to facing similar situations. I am thankful they've been kind enough to impart suggestions and advice.
My US Visa is still stagnant, and another issue that is facing a little roadblock as well... is the state of my application for my Chicago temporary physician license. Making phone calls, writing countless emails (saying thank you for a thousandth time probably since this started!) and doing paperwork, faxing- it's almost part of everyday routine now... or rather, everynight's duties.
I only told mum this morning, and she was nervous for me, I could tell. Luckily, dad was more chillax-ed. I certainly don't want them worrying about this for me.
I've handled most paperwork and roadblocks on my own with their guiding backs but there is no need for extra concerns in their lives. Plus, a great friend told me today;
'Don't worry. It's NOT THE END OF THE WORLD!' ;)
She even bolded it.
Thank you to all whom have taken the time and effort to reply my long-winded worrisome emails ........ :)
Much appreciated xo
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2:44 PM;;
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Syeyi was playing with my laptop and said my camera made her look so much fairer!
And I had just told her I don't have any pictures with her on my blog! Both Sze-Sze and Syu-Syu were on it; so....... we ended up ... :- (U guessed it ;P)
Sisterly love :) *cough* Sze-Sze says 'Posers' and we roll our eyes ;)
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10:52 PM;;
Silly Johnny smelling me. Sye says it's cos I stink :p I beg to differ, darling who's still in stinky school-clothes!
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9:22 PM;;
This was removed initially for fear of scaring people off with dear daddy's BIG protuberant tummy ;P *laughs*her
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1:32 PM;;
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Sorry baby, your face was much much closer to the camera !!
Looks like baby's performing a major surgery here ;)
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12:31 PM;;
We had my favourite dim sum yesterday :)
We made banana pancakes this morning, drizzled deliciously with maple syrup and sprinkled sparsely with sugar flakes :)
We watched He's Just Not That into You last night. And you could hear baby go 'SHIT! How embarassing!' cringing in embarassment at how the protagonist was so desperado... But in the end, I think all of us fell for Justin Long's character and went Awww.... daddy looked at all of us; as if his four daughters went nuts & boy-crazy ;) *laughs*
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12:11 PM;;
Sisterly love :) *cough* Sze-Sze says 'Posers' and we roll our eyes ;)
This was removed initially for fear of scaring people off with dear daddy's BIG protuberant tummy ;P *laughs*
Sorry baby, your face was much much closer to the camera !!
Looks like baby's performing a major surgery here ;)
My panda-eyes almost complete! Dad says 'WhAT HAPPENED? U look like U got BOXED!'
Final touch-ups from make-up maestro ;P
